Miracle.

This kid is a miracle boy. And I am so grateful to have him in my life. Love him and his family so much. They are my second family.


Kimmee has been the best friend I have ever had. She is my sister. And I don't know where I'd be without her. We have been there for eachother through EVERYTHING. Not many people get to have a once in a lifetime friend. But i sure do. And she is strong, mature, fiesty, weird, a clutz, crazy, beautiful, caring, understanding, a worrier (she needs to calm it down sometimes), happy, smart, compassionate, good, and so many more things i can't even list them all. I am so proud to call her my friend. I feel like sometimes I take out things on her. And I know it isn't fair. But no matter what she has stuck by me. So Kim, thanks for being my best friend. And letting me be apart of your family. And for being apart of mine. I LOVE YOU. And we both love Brandon so much.





"you only meet your once in a lifetime friends, once in a lifetime"

one year

it has been ONE year since i graduated from skyline high school and then my amazing two week trip to europe. do you ever feel like time is flying by too fast?


i always wanted to grow up-i couldn't wait to be an adult. and while college has been much better than high school, and i am at a good place in my life, i can't help but look back and sometimes feel a little sad that life isn't that carefree anymore. i am so glad that i enjoyed it while i could. senior year was a blast and last summer was one of the best summers of my life.

this year has really been just what i needed. heaven knows i have grown up a lot since this time last year. as the saying goes, "the only constant thing in life is change." and the changes this past year have changed me for the better. here's to another fabulous, growing, changing year.

and for my own enjoyment, some pictures from europe. im really wishing i was back there right now, instead of stuck in cold utah working. but such is life.


on top of the eiffel tower with my two loves: claire and jessie!


the night train=hell. this is for you paige.


assisi, italy


colosseum


gondola ride in venice.


it was pouring rain there!


pub in germany!


salt mines. sweet jumpsuits right?


austria!


trevi fountain. my wish? to get proposed to there someday. one of my favorite things of the whole trip.


biking through versailles! it was incredible. best bike ride ever.


peasant girl. the beautiful neuschwanstein castle. and lesial! i miss her


isn't this picture amazing? sweet photo taking skills compliments to paige heyn.

europe, i hope to see you again for a study abroad soon!

all good things must come to an end...

this is it folks. one more final tomorrow morning and i am officially done with my freshman year of college. what a year it has been. never in my life have i grown so much. at first it was painful, extremely painful, and at times i wanted to give up. but in the end, it was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. this has been the best year of my life. i am going to copy my great friend amelia and list some things i have learned this year.

being away from my family is hard
but it is fun to skype with my sisters
and with kimmee and maggie
bullen hall 205 is the best place to live
girls from heber are the best girls there are, especially if there names are allie and lexi
keeping in touch with friends back home isn't hard. sometimes you become even closer
you have to study if you want good grades, it just doesn't come as easy anymore
chandler, whitney, mary, and amelia are cute names. and cute people. and great friends.
jordan elsie jones is no longer just a friend, she's my sister
it's okay to cry sometimes
it is also okay to let people hold you when you cry
it's fun to get letters from missionaries
music always gets me through and doesnt let me down
i have my own testimony and it is stronger than i thought it was.
you can pray about anything, even the things you might think are stupid.
reading scriptures really do make me feel better.
math sucks.. but i think i already knew that
money doesn't just always appear magically in my bank account
sometimes you cant just go buy things when you want to
calling people on the phone isn't a life or death situation
deep conversations are the best, so are spiritual ones
when you live in bullen hall, you make lifelong friends
i am really going to miss the cute boys i met here going on their missions
going to college isn't just about getting an education
if you are pmsing, take some alone time
walking through the graveyard is therapeutic
a lot of people love me and have my back
change is hard but brings the most growth
the priesthood is incredible and so essential
sometimes you have to clean things and it sometimes isn't fun
doing the dishes sometimes relieves stress.
nicholette is a great roommate. and a great person
things always seem to have a way of working themselves out.

thanks to all who made this year so good. i love you.

harry potter is life

"it swept us away to a world we've never returned from"

this is how i have always felt about harry potter. i have been in love with it from the first time i got it for christmas when i was 7. my mom and me read the first books together, and then i got older and read them by myself. that is another reason why it means a lot to me. they helped me to truly love books and reading. they will ALWAYS be my FAVORITE books of ALL time. when this movie comes out it will really be over. and my heart will break a little. and yes, i will probably cry. i know i sound dramatic but seriously, harry potter is very important to me, and means a lot to me. from all the memories it's given me, to the amazing world it introduced me to, to the characters i LOVE and feel as if they are my close personal friends, to a love for reading, for making me a better reader, to bonding me with friends, for teaching me wise lessons (let's face it, dumbledore is the wisest persone ever), to teaching me about being a true friend, it comforts me, and has gotten me through some tough times. As you can see it's really given me a lot. so yes, i know i am a nerd but harry potter is real to me. haha call me crazy but its true. thank you j.k. rowling, for being so brilliant and creating a series of books i will cherish forever.

i tried to post the video on here but got confused! so just go to the link instead!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hcf6cwr9TnY&feature=player_detailpage

home sweet home

I got to go home for Easter and it was marvelous. I hung out with family and friends whom I love dearly! I took a lot of my stuff back so my room looks lived in again. It was looking pretty lonely with just my dolls on the counters.

Yes i know, once again I act like a little girl. But, I think we are all little giggling girls at heart right? We never fully grow up and if you do than you are boring so BAMM! I also watched The Little Mermaid and Sleeping Beauty with my mom and Harry Potter 7 with Brooke and Katie. Two of my favorite things in the world Disney and Harry Potter.

My sister Brookie is moving out this week. It's so unfair that right when I am moving back in, she's moving out. I am excited for her though. I will just miss her lots. I will miss her weird expressions, her movies, her laugh, her waking me up in the morning even when i want to punch her in the face, her making me do things I dont want to do, when she sings everything she says, her rage (it's scary, and just living with her in general. I know I haven't really lived with her this past 9 months but it is still just sad. We will probably never live together again. She is one of my best friends and I love her so much! At least she won't be too far away!


I also got to hang out with some of the funniest, beautiful, trustworthy, super amazing, super awesome, lovely ladies in the world. Jessie, Paigey, Kels Bels, Tiffy, Ky By. We all became close playing soccer together. They are some of my BEST friends and I can seriously tell them ANYTHING. We have all been through a lot together. I can't imagine life without them, and even though we all live all over utah (hahaha) we have gotten even closer this year. Thank goodness for soccer. I miss it and them a lot. This summer will be so fun. Love you girls. Thanks for everything you do for me.

silly girl...

Anyone who knows me well knows that I wish I were in a book. I wish my life was magical and dangerous and crazy sometimes.

I want to be a witch and save the wizarding world. I want to be a Shadowhunter and fight demons. I want to be as smart and quick as Katniss. I want to live in a Jane Austen novel and marry Mr. Darcy. I want to live in greek mythology. I want dragons to be real. Maybe it would be cool to be a princess (I know I act like I am 5 years old). I want to live in a fairytale; being Belle, Ariel, Aurora, Cinderella, Pocahontas,Rapunzel, etc. And most of all, I want to have an epic love story. Sometimes I even want to have a tragic love story! (crazy right? but there is just something so tragically beautiful about those love stories).

I want to be able to fight for my life. To save the ones I love. To actually prove myself. To be wise, and be fierce and tough and beautiful and awesome and courageous and intense.

I don't just want to be a silly girl with silly dreams. Because today that is what I feel like. I feel like I am not even doing anything spectacular with my life.

Yes, I know I am at college, which dont get me wrong, is great. I have the best family and the best friends in the world. I have the Holy Ghost in my life and most especially The Savior who is ALWAYS there for me. I would be lost without my membership in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I also have an idea about what I want to do with my life as far as a career goes.

I shouldn't be ungrateful and I'm really not, it is just one of my dreaming days where I am wishing I was someone else or just wishing my life was cooler. I have quite the imagination sometimes. Maybe that is my problem. Or maybe i am going crazy. I wouldn't be surprised by that option either.

I know that one day I am going to be so happy with all that I've accomplished and I will be so satisfied with my life. I feel that way a lot already. I am just not really feeling that today. But it's okay. I will just keep dreaming for a little while. I love you all! And I am sorry I am so weird.

"I live in my own little world, but its okay they know me here"

English Major?

Here I sit, looking up classes to take for next fall. I am getting a little stressed. I know that being an english major means I have to write a lot (obviously!) but what if I can't do it? What if people have been lying to me my whole life and I'm really not that great at writing? What if I can't do it? What if I can't keep up with all the people around me?

I know, I know I shouldn't be thinking like this. If I don't believe in myself then who will? Well, actually a lot of people do. I am really grateful for that. I just wish that I could see myself through someone else's eyes sometimes.

I am just having a little freak out is all. Don't worry, I will get through it. I always do. With the help of prayer, family, and friends.

Because you know what? I can do anything. That is what is so great about being alive at this time. I have so many opportunities before me, and so many people to turn to if I need them. So I am going to take this self doubt I am having right now and kick it in the face. BAMMM. If I want to do this, I will have to work hard and BELIEVE in myself.

Here I go. My change of attitude is starting right now. No more doubt whispering in my ear saying:
"You can't do this!"
"You aren't smart enough!"
Because as a wise person once said:

"Whether you think you can or you can't, you're right"
-Henry Ford

And here is a cute picture just so this blog isn't so boring!!